what do i do
to stay so true
ide drop it all just for you

deep in my passion
deep in my memory
it all seesm so small
it seems to get the best of me

ide kill my soul
to let you love
deep in my lust
i feel your sin
i cant take the chance to show it all
cause everytime i try i lose it all

im scared inside
ide lie and ide die inside
just for you
ide give it my all
just to save you
cause i cant watch you
just slip away

lets leave our hearts broken
fill them with the pain we left unspoken
and these few words of truth mean nothing
because nothings left but memories
in the cold hearted murder
of whats left behind our eyes

in these days
we feel our pain
fill our hearts with such emotion
now all bonds we made all broken
through the lies
we did we tried
through pain and struggle
raw emotion

in the last days we travel through our minds
but only left to find
exactly what we started with
not a suprise that all thats in our heart
we can see in your eyes

i killed another piece of me
cause i thought it would help

everything ends
and its always my fault
you always saw me
for what i wanted you to see
i never showed you
what you needed to see

now im crucified in my guilt
and im down on my knees
all this blood on my hands
will never fade away
i lost everything i loved
and i feel it everyday

ill pass the day
with a poem
that iv written in blood
because the ink wont hold
whats written into stone

hypnotized by the lies
cause there all i got
deep inside killing me
cause there all that im not

all these lies and the tears
were all that was left
all these images of you
scarred on my chest

i saw heaven through your eyes
what a suprise
i let it all slip
all that made me feel alive

al these things that i said
will never fade away
its like an echo in my head
waking all the memories
that i thought to be dead
as the silence falls
i hear the calls
im all by myself
and this is how it ends

everythings racing
as im tracing
all of these feelings
i used to have

now im dead inside
no air supply
you slit my throat

and after everything
ive said and done
it doesnt mean shit
hypnotized by the lies
every one of these lies
i cried and i died
deep inside
but with everything you took
it was never enough

now in silence i will die
everything i did
killing me inside
and now it doesnt matter
at least i tryed
and i cryed and i died
and it was all for you
but this big fuck you
is to

i stand
on my thrown of happiness
through the medication
and broken glass
how long
can it last

half past myself
and inside whats left
of what i could be
to see to believe
what i am should never be

tracing my open wounds
i call my past
it all fades so fast
what i want
can never last

all i knew
day to day
wastes away
if i leave i die inside
but staying is not my paradise

embracing our past
mandates the fear of our future

without saying anything
the look in your eyes
told me everything
i ever needed to know

without saying a word
laying next to me
got the best of me
turned me upside down

on a cold winter night
the only thing insight
my everything laying next to me
and you would never even know it

sitting all alone
slipping into a dream
you mean so much to me
i couldn't ever see
i never knew the way
you made me feel

P.S.
i love you more
than i could show it
with the beauty that surrounds you
i could never explain
how you make me feel
laying next to you
with eyes closed
in the darkness
living out our fantasies

a blank page
to spill my guts
whats left of what to say
in the silence
the only time
i can see the light

scared of my feelings
weather wrong or right
ends my life
instilling the fear
but only for tonight
tomorow shines
the light of forgivness
for every crime iv commited
now sets me free

with time to kill
and no one watching
no one to care
no ones listining
what could i ever do
with no light shining the way through
but its nothing new

if the soul dies
is there a way for the soul to thrive
in the darkness of what we have
could you change what youve known
if we had cared
would it have shown

emphasis on black
entombed into darkness
shimmers of light
shines through a hole
still life of a sunset
things that make me whole

trapped inside
this still frame of hatred
and emotional abuse
this self centered hatred
leaves me confused

proportion of an object
thats over used
everyones stuck in my head
and i dont know what to do

embroidered in my heart
sealed in paved like a road
i shall hide my emotions
until i explode

addiction
love is like a sin of lust
emotions that kill
world turns to dust
why such a thrill

temptation
eating me
inside to out
gutting me
screaming out
kill me

the eternal feeling
doubting believing
all of these feelings
which kill the everythings
that ever mattered

and in the end
would it have mattered
because the harder i try
the more i die
inside and out

im lost in this sea of emotion
lost but never forgotten
now my mind is broken
because i took away
what took so long
for me to have gotten

the only thing
always on my mind
your a one of a kind
but its all in my head
what can be said
when ive fucked it all up
and now im stuck
on what i can never undo

and its you
that made me wanna wake up
every morning and every night
just to hear your voice

how could i have forgotten
the greatness of what i felt
but to let it all just melt away
put an end to whats killing me
would end all im living for

all i ask is one more chance
i beg you
please dont leave me in this sea alone

face down in shit
and im starting to like it
thinking about what i have done

beat like a dog
you threw me around
cause no one cared
and now i cant feel

what have i done
and what can i do
all of this shit
is because of you

i cant make it through
all of this shit
cause its all over
and what can i do
to make it all over

dark and over whelming
what should i have done
to have ended it all
nothing seems to get through

you took everything
piece by piece
string by string
taking its toll
watching it all
slip away

why do i try
biding my time
to try to fight
when everytime i try
i lose my self
more and more

i just cant find
a safe place to rest
i torture my self
just to let it all end

caught up again
so still i try
to let it all unwind
ending my life
because it doesnt matter

theres nothing left
you never knew me
yet you watched me die
tore me apart
just to see inside

big blue eyes
dark and glaring
scaring the honesty into me
fear and compasion
of all that i know

caring is an obsolete emotion
it brings death and destruction
to all that are knowing
these sinicle thoughts
run through me
like blood in my veins

a broken artury
in a field of emotion
the only way to discribe
this pain of all knowiing
self hatred and pity

self pity
of undying devotion
of hatred of all that ive known
and to kill my self
in a sence of showing
the only thing
i ever brought to me was pain

the darkness in these eyes
shows self hatred only to be discribed as unknown

a compelling
unwanted silence
murdering my still thoughts

the blood letting of my sences
leaves everything in unrest
this killing silence leaves nothing to test

a new starts
leaves me where i began
2 steps back
from where i began
no where in life to end up
so i sit back and watch it all just end

the silence in mid suicide
kills part of everyone who cared

this life i love so dear
now fills me so full of fear
all these tears
i can no longer hide

inside burning
these flames of compasion
now for everything
i cant have

demons are my memories
now killing
all the happyness i cant have

these writings
keep me alive
my insides ripped apart
by uncomfortable feelings

teasing me
screaming torture
love feels like a disease
my broken mind
kills me from ym lies
and now what it hides
scares what it solves

this one last word
will end my life
my one last day
ends with your verbal knife

if only what we had
could always last
now im locked in my room
stuck on the past

this verbal knife is killing me
even though im my worst enemy
im sry i made you happy
after we were done you led me on
even after we were done

the sick little games i play
with my own little feelings
stuck on my own with no room for healing
and you sat there stealing
all of my feelings
the only thing i had left

with this one last stroke
accross my vein
one more slice acrossed
ends all my pain

well its been a while since ive done this so will see how it goes.

my pessimism will be the end of me
in loving death
this will all just be a memory

love is suicide
ending all
in blinding chains
all these feelings
just drive me insane

to think i cared
you threw it in my face
everyday i die
because all my feelings
are depressing memorys

in this bleeding black death
that i call my memories
you shall just become
another unwanted piece of me

what makes us whole
tears us apart
were all fools
the feelings that start it all
will be the ones that end our life

incarceration of the heart
is suicide of the soul

the evil days
have past us by
slowly bitterly, as we die
all we ever knew faith unrested with in you

ive seen better days
like the calm before the storm
and now its torturing me
cause everytime i die inside

everyday you try
another part of you will die
and the ignorence you brought
lives on inside you

and everyday i see the light
dying like a cinddling flame
and as we try are best
all thats left as pain
as we try to run away
the pain will stay

day after day
piece by piece
like a masterpiece
as the torture and pain subsides
all you know dies
and somthing new awaks

good days fast days
take it all while its easy
take it while it lasts
dreams and memories
killing me day by day
the same od song we used to sing
time after time
i lived this lie

so far we cry we die
how we lived so far
what else matters
dreams and screams
death awaits

reat in peace
all who sing this song
all this time went by
way to fast to explain it all
good time bads times
live it up
drink it down
it makes me laugh
all so fast who could frown

as darkness fades
to what we seem to find
nothing left behind
no one leaves this world alive
so live hard and die young

as the days of old pas us faster
time flys by but who knows
if hell is on earth
then ide hate to see paradise
with an evil glare
smile on the holy
would you ever dare
face down the demons

we all lived hard
weakness kill us all
so to end this dream
would begin a new nightmare
as we fade away
what matters in a name
people come and go
if im remembered for somthing
dont let me know