what do i do
to stay so true
ide drop it all just for you

deep in my passion
deep in my memory
it all seesm so small
it seems to get the best of me

ide kill my soul
to let you love
deep in my lust
i feel your sin
i cant take the chance to show it all
cause everytime i try i lose it all

im scared inside
ide lie and ide die inside
just for you
ide give it my all
just to save you
cause i cant watch you
just slip away

lets leave our hearts broken
fill them with the pain we left unspoken
and these few words of truth mean nothing
because nothings left but memories
in the cold hearted murder
of whats left behind our eyes

in these days
we feel our pain
fill our hearts with such emotion
now all bonds we made all broken
through the lies
we did we tried
through pain and struggle
raw emotion

in the last days we travel through our minds
but only left to find
exactly what we started with
not a suprise that all thats in our heart
we can see in your eyes

i killed another piece of me
cause i thought it would help

everything ends
and its always my fault
you always saw me
for what i wanted you to see
i never showed you
what you needed to see

now im crucified in my guilt
and im down on my knees
all this blood on my hands
will never fade away
i lost everything i loved
and i feel it everyday

ill pass the day
with a poem
that iv written in blood
because the ink wont hold
whats written into stone

hypnotized by the lies
cause there all i got
deep inside killing me
cause there all that im not

all these lies and the tears
were all that was left
all these images of you
scarred on my chest

i saw heaven through your eyes
what a suprise
i let it all slip
all that made me feel alive

al these things that i said
will never fade away
its like an echo in my head
waking all the memories
that i thought to be dead
as the silence falls
i hear the calls
im all by myself
and this is how it ends

everythings racing
as im tracing
all of these feelings
i used to have

now im dead inside
no air supply
you slit my throat

and after everything
ive said and done
it doesnt mean shit
hypnotized by the lies
every one of these lies
i cried and i died
deep inside
but with everything you took
it was never enough

now in silence i will die
everything i did
killing me inside
and now it doesnt matter
at least i tryed
and i cryed and i died
and it was all for you
but this big fuck you
is to

i stand
on my thrown of happiness
through the medication
and broken glass
how long
can it last

half past myself
and inside whats left
of what i could be
to see to believe
what i am should never be

tracing my open wounds
i call my past
it all fades so fast
what i want
can never last

all i knew
day to day
wastes away
if i leave i die inside
but staying is not my paradise

embracing our past
mandates the fear of our future

without saying anything
the look in your eyes
told me everything
i ever needed to know

without saying a word
laying next to me
got the best of me
turned me upside down

on a cold winter night
the only thing insight
my everything laying next to me
and you would never even know it

sitting all alone
slipping into a dream
you mean so much to me
i couldn't ever see
i never knew the way
you made me feel

P.S.
i love you more
than i could show it
with the beauty that surrounds you
i could never explain
how you make me feel
laying next to you
with eyes closed
in the darkness
living out our fantasies

a blank page
to spill my guts
whats left of what to say
in the silence
the only time
i can see the light

scared of my feelings
weather wrong or right
ends my life
instilling the fear
but only for tonight
tomorow shines
the light of forgivness
for every crime iv commited
now sets me free

with time to kill
and no one watching
no one to care
no ones listining
what could i ever do
with no light shining the way through
but its nothing new

if the soul dies
is there a way for the soul to thrive
in the darkness of what we have
could you change what youve known
if we had cared
would it have shown

emphasis on black
entombed into darkness
shimmers of light
shines through a hole
still life of a sunset
things that make me whole

trapped inside
this still frame of hatred
and emotional abuse
this self centered hatred
leaves me confused

proportion of an object
thats over used
everyones stuck in my head
and i dont know what to do

embroidered in my heart
sealed in paved like a road
i shall hide my emotions
until i explode

addiction
love is like a sin of lust
emotions that kill
world turns to dust
why such a thrill

temptation
eating me
inside to out
gutting me
screaming out
kill me

the eternal feeling
doubting believing
all of these feelings
which kill the everythings
that ever mattered

and in the end
would it have mattered
because the harder i try
the more i die
inside and out